What To Say...

I have opened up my blog several times today as I have wanted to write or say something; however, I do not know what I want to say.

Life is busy, and it certainly is not stopping any time soon. It's fun, but at the same time, I feel quite behind on many things. I still have a hard time saying no to things, and it is kicking my butt. School is going, but I am now wondering why I really went back. A huge part of me just doesn't want to do it anymore... at all! I want to be a grown up with a full-time job that is the majority of my week. I want to be able to plan things in advance, and know my schedule. Money still bothers me greatly as a stressor!

I am starting to get nervous about getting married. Not because I'm not excited or that I'm wondering if it's the right thing to do, but because I'm afraid that I won't be a good wife and mother. I am so nervous about doing something wrong, and Brandon not being happy. In one hour, it will be 33 days until we get married. It is coming so soon!! Parties are starting up, and it'll be here before we know it! There is still so much to do, and these next 4 1/2 weeks are going to be very busy!

Abby's bridal shower was a lot of fun this past Saturday, and I am glad I was able to attend. She is an amazing young lady who I am grateful to call my friend! She is getting married a week after me, and it's fun to be going through this with her. There are many differences, but there are many things that her and I are going through now that is similar. I cannot wait to attend her wedding!

I guess I must get some sleep as I have a busy day tomorrow! There is much to do, and I need to make sure I'm on top of everything... or at least have what I need. :-) Oh life, please calm down for me soon, and give me some energy to make it through it all!!

PS - I have my father/daughter song! AND I really want to lose some weight and tone up! I wonder how much I can do in 34(33) days with all my stress and crazy schedule?!?!?!