In a Funk

So last night I got my butt chewed out by a new friend of mine (we've only known each other for a week) and I have to say that I'm glad he did. Not that I enjoy being chewed out for things in my life or how I'm handling things, but I appreciate the care and just the wake up call that I obviously needed.

I've been in a funk all week, and I'm not really sure why. It's not something I like, but something I'm just dealing with and as said today in Relief Society, "it's just a little bump." Either way, this funk has caused me to do a lot of thinking with stress added to it all. I'm thinking a lot about my life and where I am. I'm thinking about being single, and well, I hate thinking about that! BUT, some of this thinking got some direction. My new friend, Beau, finally put something in terms that I needed to hear it. I've been trying to figure things out with Jared and what it all is... well, Beau couldn't have put it any better... "he's a jerk." It's all him, and none of me. Why would I ever even think about being in a relationship with someone like that, no matter what our relationship used to be in the past?! It's the present and future that matters. So although it's not easy, sometimes one just has to say... I'm done. *sigh*.... I'M DONE!!! (Now, I'm going to need people to help me hold to that. :-/)

Now, yes, I have a lot happening in my life and pretty good reason, I think, to be stressed. However, I was reminded today of something in Sacrament Meeting. They were talking about Temples, which is a place I love! I need to get back... ASAP! But the statement was about putting your priorities in order. Are my priorities in order? If not, what am I going to do to get them there. I am always growing, and always learning. I'm not perfect or anywhere close. But I know I want to be the best that I can be. I want to be worthy for my eternal companion (whomever, where ever he may be) that I will be able to be with forever -- be it on this earth or in the life after. More importantly, I want to be worthy to meet my Maker and Savior.

Well, I have been listening to a CD I got at TOFW, and I love this CD. It is Jenny Jordan Frogley's CD, and it's amazing! Very upbeat and just wonderful messages. There are many songs I can relate to in different things, but one that I think fits my life well right now is the one I want to share...

Slow Down

Jenny Jordan Frogley

The sun comes up, and you're looking at another day

No time for breakfast, grab a bite along the way

You're off and runnin'

So much to do, cause time's not standin' still

Another destination, another deal

It keeps you comin'

Maybe in a year or two there will be more time

For long walks and quiet talks, maybe see a sunrise

But as the scenery of life is flyin' by

You may just miss the ride

Slow down - Let your feet touch the ground

Slow down - There's so much to be found

It's alright - It'll all come around

Slow down

Tryin' to keep up cause that's just what we do

Cause more is always better and it looks so good on you

You're on your way now

Filling the minutes with everything life brings

Looking for something and missing everything

Tomorrow for now

It's not about giving up on dreams or desires

Or living with a passion that burns like fire

It's getting to the essence of what really lasts

And what you'll remember when your life is past

Slow down - Let your feet touch the ground

Slow down - There's so much to be found

It's alright - It'll all come around

Slow down

The angels are standing by to breathe truth to your soul

The true joy is in the ordinary, the simple, and the pure

It's alright - It'll all come around

Slow down