Just feel lost? I know we all go through moments where things just don't seem together or that we are confused. There are those moments that you are just really trying to figure out what's happening.
Here lately, I have felt lost. I have felt lost in work as I have once again changed jobs. Oh how I hate changing jobs and feeling like I can't find that fit. I have felt lost at home in just trying to figure out what I need to do or want to do to the house and as a wife. I'm a horrible cook, and just feel like I don't know what to do. I feel like I lost the genes on how to be a wife. I have felt lost with Church. I have felt lost with myself.
The last two are probably the things that have just bothered me the most. It's almost as I just can't seem to find any type of answer or reason. I received a priesthood blessing which I truly believed in, and then what was stated didn't happen. I was promised I would have a clear mind, and my mind couldn't focus at all. I felt so all over the place and not together. It shook me up greatly. I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out really what is real, and what isn't. I have been hoping for some type of answer to come.
I feel as if I have lost myself. I'm not the person I used to be, but was the person I used to be really me. I honestly am not sure; hence why I feel lost. There have been a few different changes going on and will be going on for me, and Brandon asked me the other day, "are you depressed?" I said I'm not, but maybe I am. Or maybe it's just because I feel lost that I'm trying to just control the few things I can control without any worry.
The feeling of being lost is one I really don't enjoy. I know there are things that I can do to be better, but sometimes I just wonder why it feels so much harder for me.
2 comments:
Hang in there girl! We've all been there and sometimes I still go through it! Huge changes in life can do that for you. Just remember that Heavenly Father is there for you and he DOES hear your prayers. You may not get an answer right away but with patience, faith and due time something will come to you! I love you too and miss you and I wish that we lived closer so that I could help you out. One day you'll get the hang of it. I'll let you in on a little secret. No matter how much fun I was having and how happy I was to be married to my wonderful husband, for different reasons I was depressed almost the entire first year we were married. And then after we had Ethan. But things get so much better!
And another little secret...
Crock Pot Meals
Seriously, if they still sell the frozen packages they come with everything you need. I think you just add water or something. I've done it and they're good! My sister in law used them until she was able to figure out how to cook. :) Hang in there!
have you considered finding a counselor...i have been and find that it helps to talk to someone more objective and really allows me to be honest...just a loving thought
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