30 Day Blog Challenge

Day 01 - Introduce Yourself
Day 02 - Your First Love
Day 03 - Your Parents
Day 04 - What You Ate Today
Day 05 - Your Definition Of Love
Day 06 - Your Day
Day 07 - Your Best Friend
Day 08 - A Moment
Day 09 - Your Beliefs
Day 10 - What You Wore Today
Day 11 - Your Siblings
Day 12 - What's In Your Bag
Day 13 - This Week
Day 14 - What You Wore Today
Day 15 - Your First Kiss
Day 16 - Your Dreams
Day 17 - Your Favorite Birthday
Day 18 - Your Favorite Memory
Day 19 - Something You Regret
Day 20 - This Month
Day 21 - Another Moment
Day 22 - Something That Upsets You
Day 23 - Something That Makes You Feel Better
Day 24 - Something That Makes You Cry
Day 25 - A First
Day 26 - Your Fears
Day 27 - Your Favorite Place
Day 28 - Something That You Miss
Day 29 - Your Aspirations
Day 30 - One Last Moment

Join in so we can get to know each other more.  :)

Church... Update

Well, I first should say that there are people in the Church that do care about me.  It is good to know that there are a few lovely ladies in Utah that care about me, and one lovely lady up in Texas.  I want you all to know how much it means to me!  It's always fun to see those that are there for you throughout the years.  It is often those you don't think it would be that's there.  How I wish I was closer to all of you!

Church was better today.  I'm not really sure it was anything about the lessons or anything as I didn't get a lot from them... oh well.  But I did enjoy the time to not really worry about life, and to just read.  I love that I have conference talks on my phone!  I read a few about faith, and it was nice.  Many of the lessons were on faith today too, but I focused more on the talks.  :)

I found out that I have a calling, so hopefully they will tell me about it soon.  haha  It will be good to have something to do.  And Home Teachers and Visiting Teachers should be coming soon!  :)  Things should hopefully start looking up, and I know a lot of it is because of your prayers!  Thank you!!

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 19

This is the only picture I have on my computer from when I was younger.  I have to say that my freshman year of high school seems to be pretty young now.  Wow - I'm so glad to be done with those days.  But it's fun to look back at this picture and remember the days I was a Varsity Cheerleader.

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 18

One of my biggest insecurities is a scale.  I HATE my weight!  I really don't like how I look, but it will change... I hope!!  *sigh*

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 17

Since I'm sure no one reads these, I can put this here.  LOL!  It's amazing what a pair of shoes (not these specifically, but similar) can do for a marriage.  :D

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 16

My dad inspires me a lot!  He's always been a strength to me.  It's amazing to see all the things he has done, and I want to be as great as him!  I hope that I can be like him when I grow up.  He works hard, and provides for his family.  My dad has always been there for me, and an ear when I needed it!  I love my dad!

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 15

Before I die, I want to be a mother.  I love little children, and I can't wait till I have my own family.  It is the one thing I've always wanted to do!  Yay for mothers!  :)

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 14

I couldn't imagine my life without Lexie.  She is my cuddle buddy, and always happy to see me.  Lexie Jo may be a pain at times, but I love her.  I look forward to seeing her, and I miss her when I'm gone.  It's hard to believe that she will be 5 years old in September.  As sad as it is, I think about what life will be like when she is gone, and it's going to be hard.  Squeaker will lose a friend as I'm sure we'll still have her, my children will lose their first dog, and my life saver won't be here anymore.  I guess I should love on her just a little more.  :)

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 13

Lady Antebellum is an amazing group!  I enjoy them so much that I walked the aisle to one of their songs.  :)

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 12

This is what I love the most out of everything!!  :)  He is my life; my love!

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 11

I very much dislike black eyed peas.  They are so gross to me, and even if they are supposed to bring you luck at the beginning of the year, I will not take one single bite.

Church

Okay, so this may not make sense, and that's okay.  It's more of just a moment to try to get thoughts together for myself.

Church, it's a good place for people to attend.  It should be a safe place full of friends, love, and support.  It was the place I used to love to be.  It was where I wanted to go always, and never wanted to leave.  Church was my favorite part of the week, and I felt like I had so much family and friends there to never need anything else.  Boy, was I wrong.

Unfortunately, Church does not make me happy anymore.  It's actually quite boring.  I feel more alone there than I do anywhere else, including being at home alone when Brandon is at work or with friends.  I miss, and I don't miss it.  I miss, and people don't miss me.

There are things that are supposed to be in place, and no I'm not relying on other people for my happiness, but my happiness comes from everything but.  My life has gone through a lot of changes, and many of those that know me, know those changes.  I have to admit that what I've come back to brings me NOTHING of what I had before I came back.  Maybe part of that is me, but there is no desire or feeling of like something is missing.

My closest friends are not LDS, and don't really attend Church.  I believe in being a good person, and serving the Lord.  I believe in serving those around you.  I believe in taking time to just rest.  Attending Church is a good thing, but if I don't go, I don't feel weird about it.  It's sad, but I feel like I go for others as I don't want questions.

I have no support or follow up, and that is what I think is the hardest.  We have talks, lessons, and conferences about reaching out to people and bringing them back.  We are taught over and over to make sure we visit everyone and seek those who are struggling.  Sorry, but I don't see that happening.

No, this is not to get people to reach out to me because if you don't really care, stay the heck away.  I'm sorry, but there is NO time in this world to be fake.  There is NO time for people to just act like they care about you when they really don't.

I want to enjoy this life, and know that those around me care about me.  Right now, it's unfortunate for me to say that there isn't anyone from Church involved with that, and if that's the case, how do I get my heart, mind, and soul to believe that's where I should be.

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 10

These three ladies are the ones I've done the craziest of stuff with.  My evil twin, Emily, has always gotten me into some kind of mess, but it doesn't help that we are so much alike.  Kaitlin and I have had too many late nights and crazy chats about everything and anything in life.  I don't believe there are too many secrets left.  My little sister, Katie, was always my running buddy with YSA.  We were always having some kind of trouble from someone, or some types of comments.  We like to break it down... what's wrong with that.  :)  I love these three girls!!

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 9

This isn't the best copy of this picture, but He is the only one who has gotten me through the most.  Life is certainly not always easy, but I know He is there every step of the way.  There are too many days that I feel completely alone and have no desire.  I often feel lost.  But with Him, I know I'm not lost or alone.  I have just a little more desire to try and do because of Him.

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 8

I laugh because of all the things that were getting put on me or handed to me prior to the gifts, dinner, and craziness.  :)  Yes, my hat has condoms all over the veil, and I am holding a penis straw.  Be jealous!  :)  And, I think I still have a penis straw somewhere.  It glows in the dark, and oh, so many laughs.  That really was a great night.

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 7

My wedding/engagement ring is the most important item I own.  I can say that it is one instead of two as we had them joined prior to the wedding.  It means so much to me because of what it stands for.  I hate not having it on, and just love it so much.

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 6

I would love to trade places with Jennifer Love Hewitt for a day, and maybe trade bodies too.  LOL

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 5

This isn't everyone who was there, but my bachelorette party is one of my favorite memories.  We had so much fun, and partied all night.  It really was an amazing night.  :)

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 4

So my favorite night was not just my wedding night, but also the night I got engaged.  Those were two days in my life that changed so much.  I knew without any doubt that Brandon loved me for me, and I was able to commit myself to him for all time.

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 3

House, MD is my all time favorite show.  No, I don't watch it during the actual season, but once it comes out on DVD, I own it!  Once I own it, I watch the entire season within just a couple days because I love it!!  It's amazing!  :)  And this picture of the original cast was probably my favorite cast, even though I do like "Thirteen" added into the mix.

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 2

I love my mother!!  I have known her for 9 months longer than anyone else.  :)

Really Neat Site

Okay - so I'm a member of The Nest now after I was a member of The Knot.  Of course, one day I'll be a member of The Bump or whatever that is.  :)  But for now, as a member of The Nest, they sent out an e-mail about some valentine stuff.  I was looking through the different gift options, and one was pretty awesome that I wanted to pass along.  You can get flowers, and 5% of the cost goes to help out a non-profit organization.  That's really cool!!

Check them out... OrganicBouquet

FB 30 Day Picture Challenge: Day 1

I'm going to try to do this, but we'll see if I make it online every day. If nothing else, I'll make it through them when I get the chance. Life is about to get crazy, but why not look back at things that make you. :)

 My wedding day! 3.13.10

15 Facts of Me
1. I love fashion and clothes.  It's more of an addiction than just a love.
2. I hate being cold, but miss the Utah winters.
3. I love candles, and would rather have a ton of candles lit than having a light turned on.
4. I really dislike my body, but have become too lazy to do anything about it.
5. I want breast implants, and no, I don't care what you think.  But I'll listen to you.
6. My wedding day was the happiest day of my life, and I can still get those feelings when I just look at my pictures from that day and the day before.
7. I miss drinking alcohol, but have made the choice to not drink.
8. I love babies and children!  I was once told before by an ex-boyfriend that that was one of the things he loved most about me... how I looked when I was with children.  He said that no matter what was going on in my life, he always saw pure happiness.  I would have to agree.
9. I miss dancing so much, and I miss the teams and even the drama!
10. I want to be rich, and never have to worry about money.
11. I love cheese!  Seriously, I am a rat.  But cheese doesn't always like me.  :(
12. I love planners, and being able to plan out close to 6 months of my life at a time.
13. Chips and dip (any kind) is totally a meal in my book!  My husband argues with me often how it isn't.
14. I don't like chocolate unless it is mixed with fruit or nuts, and no, I don't like chocolate cake or chocolate ice cream or chocolate icing.  Brownies are okay though.
15. I'm a lame wife, but I'm working on that!

Count Your Blessings

A friend of mine did a post like this today, and I feel that it is something that I should do too. Thanks Kati!

Count Your Blessings
When upon life's billows you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings; name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord has done.

Count your blessings; Name them one by one.
Count your blessings; See what God hath done.
Count your blessings; Name them one by one.
Count your many blessings; See what God hath done

Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?
Count your many blessings; ev'ry doubt will fly,
And you will be singing as the days go by.

Chorus

When you look at others with their lands and gold,
Think that Christ has promised you his wealth untold.
Count your many blessings; money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven nor your home on high.

Chorus

So amid the conflict, whether great or small,
Do not be discouraged; God is over all.
Count your many blessings; angels will attend,
Help and comfort give you to your journey's end.

Chorus

So I posted the whole song because it's a really great song with so many wonderful verses. I have been blessed with many wonderful things, and especially those things that I cannot buy. Below is just a list of some of the wonderful things in my life...

The Gospel of Jesus Christ.I have Christ in my life, and know of His teachings. I know of the truthfulness and fullness of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. He is my Savior, my Elder Brother, and my Friend.

Family.My parents and brother are amazing. I love spending time with my mom, and just talking about everything in life... and I mean EVERYTHING! My dad is still my dad; one that I am able to curl up with in the chair whenever I want. My in-laws are pretty great too. I don't know my sibling in-laws very well, but I know they are wonderful people!

Husband.I had to put Brandon in his own group as he is certainly his own person. He loves me, and although we don't have the perfect marriage and are constantly having to learn how to be a better wife and husband, I know he is there for me. There are little things he'll do every once in awhile that just make my heart melt, and helps me to remember how much I do love him. As he has told me, there are three things I can be certain of... death, taxes, and he's not going anywhere. :)

My animals.These girls are my babies. The love me unconditionally, and show it often. As I type this, I have my kitten laying beside me with her head on my lap. No matter if I'm in bed or on the couch, I always have a kitten and puppy with me. They are excited to see me come, and sad to see me go. I love that I had the chance to see Lexie grow from birth through pictures and since I got her at 7 weeks old. I love that I got to take care of Squeaker from around 10 days old to now. They are so much of a salvation to me.

Material things.I have been so blessed to be able to have the things that I want without too much struggle. I have a wonderful job that allows me to have fun and pay bills. My husband is great with taking care of things too, and between the both of us, we are able to have electronics of any kind, a house, two vehicles, and so many things.

Friendships.I may not have a lot of friends, but I certainly have some true friends. I have people who care about me on so many different levels. I love that I even have a friend who I have never met, and yet, I feel close to her. It's amazing how certain friendships are supposed to be there, and will be there no matter what.

There's a reason for everything! No, I will not pretend to know why some things have happened the way they have in my life, but I will say that I wouldn't want it any other way. It's not always easy; actually, it's very rarely easy, but it always works out in the end and becomes amazing!! There are so many more blessings in my life I am sure of it, but those are the few things that come to my mind right now that are just things that are important to me.