This coming Fall will be 8 years since I met Jared. In the past almost 8 years, I have cared about him and have wanted to be with him. No one ever seemed to truly compare to him as Jared always was "better" in one way or another. There was never any discussion in my mind and my heart who I wanted to be with. Jared was the one, and him and I were working towards making that happen... again.
Well, today I finally did something I never thought I would do. I sent Jared a text message this evening asking him to call me when he wasn't busy, as I know he is normally hanging out with his guy friends. He called after a few messages back and forth, and we had a small casual chit-chat. Then, here it went. I told him that I've cared about him for so long and have always wanted to be with him. I told him that he always won, and that no other guy compared to him... till now. I informed Jared that I've been dating a guy for a little bit, and that I don't know what's going to happen at all. However, I felt that it wasn't fair to Jared to keep him thinking that maybe something could happen, when it wasn't going to happen... ever.
Jared didn't sound heartbroken, and I really do hope we keep our friendship. However, no trip to Memphis for me, and no more random hook ups either. haha In all seriousness, I know this was the BEST thing for me, and exactly what was needed to be done. Jared said "that's fine," and for me to get that kind of response helps me know even more that it wasn't what was needed in my life.
I'm glad that I was finally able to let him go! Now, it's time for me to enjoy the things happening in my life, and well, be more me!! :-)
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