4 1/2 years, three semi-relationships, one relationship, several dates, a marriage conversation and I still think back to you. In every "relationship", you are the one that each guy is compared to and the one that each guy never completely measures up to. At the end of every "relationship", you are the one I want to run to and the one I want to be with. WHY?!?!
I'm really not understanding why I want to turn to you so much, and why my heart is having such a hard time letting you go.
I was the one to end our relationship, not you. I shouldn't be the one having such a hard time with this. It ended because we both needed to grow up, and there were things that I needed to do that I could only do single. Now, I don't want to do anything without you.
We used to talk so much; you always wanted to know what was happening in my life, but yet something changed. The last time I saw you couldn't have been the end... it didn't feel like an end at all. Yet, I haven't heard from you at all. I remember the look you had in your eyes when you saw me in your Uncle's garage. The hug, the fact that you didn't want to let me go or get very far from you... the kiss. None of that was empty, none of that was fake. Yet what changed?
You've always known how to make me laugh when I wanted to be so mad at you. You are the one that was such a support to me when I struggled so much. You prayed for me when you knew that was the last thing on my mind. You always appreciated me for me, and saw the little things that made me happy. Why is it that you can say that you've missed me so much and that everything comes back to me for you, yet you are so far away?
I miss our conversations. I miss hearing your stories about work or basketball. I miss your golf stories, and hearing about your clubs taking flying lessons that day or you having a good day on the course or whatever it may be. I miss us, and how happy you made me. It was pure, and it was real. There are so many memories that I have of us from the days at AC, trips to Memphis/Ohio, and seeing you in Utah, Lufkin, and Flower Mound. Each memory is good. I honestly don't remember anything bad between us.
So many times have I prayed to have these feelings removed. So many times have I tried to just forget you and to stop caring about you. However, it seems like all I do is want you more and more and continue to love you every day. I don't know what to do, but I know that I can't be in any type of relationship until I am able to let you go as it wouldn't be fair.
Still Going Through
-Phil Stacey
What happened to Mr.[Ms.] Right
What went wrong the other night
When you called me
Oh, why did you call me
To talk about the good old days
And take a walk down memory lane
Catch up on life
Oh, since the day we died
Girl[Boy], I don't know about you
As for me, I'm still going through
[Chorus]Every kiss, nights like this
The way you looked in the light
Of that lonely moon
Looking down on us from that southern sky
Every word that fell from your lips
Baby, I miss everything
And I have no clue how you got over
What I'm still going through
What more could you have to say
You said it all when you walked away
And just left me here
Yeah, you made it clear
I don't know what I'm doing wrong
I don't know why I can't move on
And just let this go
Girl[Boy], would you let me know
What it is I have to do
To keep from going through
[Repeat Chorus]
The bright light at the end of the tunnel
Sure is fading fast
'Cause I just can't get past
Every kiss, nights like this
The way you looked in the light
Of that lonely moon
Looking down on us from that southern sky
Every word and every kiss,nights like this
The way you looked in the light
Of that lonely moon
Looking down on us from that southern sky
Every word that fell from your lips
Baby, I miss everything
And I have no clue how you got over
I have no clue how you got over
What I'm still going through
What I'm still going through
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